Seven years ago, my life changed. Alex went from being my girlfriend, to being a person who impacted my life in ways that I probably still don't realize. We went from talking about her in the present tense to the past tense... and you can argue whether it was for good or bad, but I don't think that's necessary. We will never fully understand why things happen. What really matters is what you do with the life and time that is given to you.

Don't take for granted the precious seconds that are ticking their way into the past even as you read this. You've lost them. They're gone. Forever. I have to remind myself of this as well. Embrace the people and experiences that have and will continue to shape you. Every single one, good or bad. If you don't know how, come see me. Maybe I can help point you in the right direction. Cause why wouldn't you want to be the best version of yourself?

I wrote a song about Alex in October of this past year... I love that I was able to do this, because it proves that she has stuck with me... I was able to write about her seven years after she left. Every single word in every line has meaning. Only a couple of people have the "privilege" of having me excitedly explain every nook and cranny of the entirety of the song. It's titled, "Saudade," which, in Portuguese, means "the love that remains." It is full of memories and perspective... the more I play it, the more I love it.

There's no better day to share it with you. :)

 

Saudade (The Love That Remains)

What I feel,

Whispering your touch, the one I loved so much.

The better days are what I'm lost in.

Swim in a sea of grass; long goodbyes to make it last.

 

But we all know better now.

Our steps won't be the same.

If there was no never now,

Would you still be with me?

 

And I can't say these words wont mean enough

And this didn’t mold the man that I’ve become.

And I can't say there isn’t more to come.

But oh, I can say I think I fell in love.

 

It's in my ear,

Whispered as a nudge, "I love you so much."

I hear a song that I get lost in

Then I am focused in on what it was and would have been.

 

But we all know better now.

I still think of who you would have been.

I can see forever now,

It’s all over me.

 

And I can't say these words wont mean enough

And this didn’t mold the man that I’ve become.

And I can't say there isn’t more to come.

But oh, I can say I think I fell in love.

 

You left a mark. It sits tall with all my deepest scars.

You took my heart. Every ounce of me from where you are.

Did I go too far? It sank deep in to my skin and turned deep and dark.

But who you are, you found your way back in though were apart.

 

And I can't say these words wont mean enough

And this didn’t mold the man that I’ve become.

And I can't say there isn’t more to come.

But oh, I can say I think I fell in love.

 

Message me if you want a recording of the song... I'd love to share it with you.

And thanks so much for reading. :)

Jesse
 

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