February 9th has been consistently sobering. On this day 8 years ago, my girlfriend at the time passed away in a car accident. It was heart wrenching and I naturally had a million questions for God. But what I have come to realize as truth, though I knew it all along in the very back of my head, is that God allows everything to happen and ALWAYS has our best interest in mind and works every single situation for our good. In every hardship, there is something to learn and something that can better you. But you have to choose the good.

Okay. Done preaching. I wrote this song 7 years after Alex died. Losing someone like that doesn't leave you. It shapes you and how you look at life, as it did me. Saudade is Portuguese means The Love That Remains. This song is full of memories, questions, and the truth that though Alex is gone, but she affected my life more than she will ever know. 

SAUDADE (THE LOVE THAT REMAINS)

What I feel,
Whispering your touch, the one I loved so much.
The better days are what I'm lost in.
Swim in a sea of grass; long goodbyes to make it last.

But we all know better now.
Our steps won't be the same.
If there was no never now,
Would you still be with me?

And I can't say these words wont mean enough
And this didn’t mold the man that I’ve become.
And I can't say there isn’t more to come.
But oh, I can say I think I fell in love.

It's in my ear,
Whispered as a nudge, "I love you so much."
I hear a song that I get lost in
Then I am focused in on what it was and would have been.

But we all know better now.
I still think of who you would have been.
I can see forever now,
It’s all over me.

And I can't say these words wont mean enough
And this didn’t mold the man that I’ve become.
And I can't say there isn’t more to come.
But oh, I can say I think I fell in love.

You left a mark. It sits tall with all my deepest scars.
You took my heart. Every ounce of me from where you are.
Did I go too far? It sank deep in to my skin and turned deep and dark.
But who you are, you found your way back in though were apart.

And I can't say these words wont mean enough
And this didn’t mold the man that I’ve become.
And I can't say there isn’t more to come.
But oh, I can say I think I fell in love.

 

Here is a link to a free download of the song:
Saudade (The Love That Remains) 

I hope you enjoy it :)

Jesse

Comment